Back to the topic at hand.
Before coming to Seattle, Iceland occurred and I feel that i had pretty good control of my eating disorder while there. That may be cause i knew that i was walking 30 thousand steps daily, but either way it was controlled. Now here in Seattle, i would 10+ steps everyday usually verging on 15+. I consume 1000 on avg calories a day and think i am a whale. I want to hate food but love it.
I am to the point where i don't know which direction this is going in. I will when the quarter here starts go back to therapy etc. Like I said i know that this is all in my head, but it is hard to change something your brain sees when you look in ther mirror. I don't just think i am fat i FEEL it. On my body.
I am gong to do my best to blog my thoughts and struggles and what not to see if that will help me haha.